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圆圆依旧渺无音讯，她留下的信中似乎是想表达，她又回了江南。

也许我不需要再担心了，在江湖上走了这么久，她应该会照顾好自己。

只是走的这样的不明不白，我仿佛被冤枉了，想解释，却没有机会。

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山寨里不少酒，不少肉，唯一少的就是女人。

老乞丐不见了。他说去买酒，一去就再也没有回来。

寨子外面人马来来往往，熙熙攘攘的像是闹市。可是再怎么热闹，依旧与世隔绝。

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已是四月天，天气晴朗的时候，万里无云，暖风阵阵。这古老而原始的丛林，散发着历久弥新的气息，像是翻开了古老的卷轴，清朴的味道似曾相识。

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步出大门，径自走向高出的山坡，远处渺茫着，层层叠叠，绿色此起彼伏。微风撩过，凌乱的头发飘向一侧。雾气从山谷升腾而起，慢慢卷到了脚下。

感觉到此刻圆圆就在身边，仿佛一对神仙眷侣，踩在云端，俯瞰着这曾经脚下踏过的路，欣赏着绝美的世间风景。

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哎~~~

这脚下的芸芸众生、、、

也许圆圆想去云南，正是为了和我过这样的生活吧、、、

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近处，远处，几乎每个山头上，都有四五个巡逻的小喽啰。提着棍棒，嘻哈的来回的张望。

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他还是他，一点都没变。

我已经不是我，变得像他的老父亲。

身后一声长啸，吼得山谷久久震颤着。

满是叹息，满是惆怅。

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当时是冲动么？可是又怎样回到那个夜晚，去仔细思考？

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人在江湖，生不由己。

所做下的事，不需要理由，更不需要解释。

解释最大的作用是宽慰自己的心，即便是假的，听了也会莫名的舒坦。

这就是人的通病。

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他是我的伯乐。

风洛江雪北国春，北国风光四时新；

为求明年花香溢，今朝不辞读书勤；

天人亲点征名将，名将欲求盈雪深；

雪深犹有轻蹄马，只为城中识马人。

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计通南北，兵无东西，是为了新的天下，而后为了他的成君之梦。

我，

战功无数，一人之下，万人之上。

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“将军，我们都败了、、、”

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这么多年不见，将军也老了。

依旧是方脸，络腮胡子。

只是更加的削瘦，胡子也是白花花的。

手上抓的那把震剑，剑鞘都已经锈迹斑斑。

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“这么多年不见，你还是没变，还是一身的书生气！”

他的声音都显的苍老。

在这清秀的山头，我们就像是躬耕的老者，看着下面，一片片的浮云。

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昨日正在质问那老乞丐，到底是谁救了我，他正在尴尬之际，背后冒出个熟悉个声音：“是我！”

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不错，正是他！

阔别多年，那个曾经对我恩重如山的将军！

-------------------李自成！

当年正是他在意气之年，起兵东南，直指中原！

三日下三城，闯王李自成。

大街小巷，儿童唱的歌谣都有他的名字。

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就是他，在我踌躇满志之时，拉我上马，让我一施才华！

就是为了春秋大梦，放弃我的圆圆，随他北上，不图荣华，但求青史留名！

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还是他，

阔步入军帐，军机尚未成，

虎眼先识羊，羊已为人物，情多自言伤。

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却是我，

执扇入京府，领恶做杀戮，

樱花落雪夜，相逢故人处。

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明，崇祯十七年。

闯王李自成进京与明军驻守山海关将领吴三桂秘密谈判，双方立场不一，谈判不欢而散。

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闯王回到帐中，闷闷不乐，我为将军心腹，耳语告知，才晓：

“将军是看上了吴三桂家的舞女？”

“非也，绝不是舞女。”

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“宗敏，这事就交在你手上，我可是为这事茶不思，饭不想，影响了这进京行程。”

“将军请放心，你只管登基大业。”

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闯王手下，能人异士皆来自江湖。我奉命重金寻来几个靠杀人赚钱的江湖混子。

每个江湖中的人，不论本事大小，都自封绰号。

而杀手这称呼，太抬举这群杀人不见血的魔鬼了。

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只是将军嘱托，自己亲口允诺。

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京城的四月，樱花刚刚开到盛季，美的让人流连往返。

吴三桂的府邸，临近皇宫，在偏北的一隅。府内，幽径曲通，有花有树。

我像只灵巧的燕子，翻起，落下，又消失不见、、、

夜行衣给了我足够的安全感，我就当世人都看不见我，在这黑的如漆的夜里。

身后跟着的，如狼似虎。潜入这安谧的将军府。

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之后，噩梦之源。

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闯王见我一去不复返，得知我已携圆圆逃离京都。一面派人寻查我的下落，一面准备进京，举行登基大业。

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吴三桂得知此事，大怒之极，怒开关门，引清军长驱直入。

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武林中，一时间结下几桩仇怨。忘恩负义之说，盛传于江湖。

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人人得我而诛之，唯有碎尸万段，方能解世人之恨！

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再之后，一切如此。

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“这么多年，你过的怎么样？”

将军老了，说话再也没有了以前那么威严，甚至有些迟钝。

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后来在不断的逃亡途中，听说李自成进京不到百天，便被清军设伏，率部逃往西部。

自此，汉人的天下被夷人所占，大明王朝，改姓了爱新觉罗。

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“将军说笑了，这么多年，生不如死。”

我凄凉的笑了，笑的柔风都绕道离开。

世界都被仇恨淹没了，有的人放下了，便活在了另一条轨道上。有的人没放下，跌落了无底深渊。

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只是后来没了李自成的任何消息，有传闻，他被朝廷抓住处死了，还有的说他皈依了佛门。

没想到，他在这里占山为王。

看样子，活的并不快活。

“我在这里生活了有几年了，这么多年跟着我的弟兄都老了，剩几个残兵，看这里景色不错，且住了下来。”

“你要是想留下来，就在我这里凑合着过吧。”

将军依旧是那个性格，能给我的，全都给我。

难道他不记恨我半路掳走了他看上的女人？

不！是他看上了我的女人！这才是错！

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“你不想将我碎尸万段么？”

我像是对着风说，对着自己说。

“这么多年了，你不是过的也不好么！”

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有人曾怀疑过时间的力量，知道有一天，他忘记了他人生中最最重要的事，才发现，时间真的是可以抚平一切，磨灭一切！

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我觉得这样对将军不公平，这么多年来，我给他留下了一个迷，转眼消失。

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“我给你讲讲我和圆圆的故事吧、、、”

“她叫圆圆、、、、、、、”

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我不知道身后有没有人在听，我好像在自言自语，讲着这么多年的故事，讲着讲着，眼泪就流了下来，只是，男人的眼泪，从未连成过线。

自己都不知道，这么多年，就这样夹带着一个心爱的女人，就这样过来了。

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讲到最后都不知道快乐存在在哪里，仿佛只有痛苦。

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“将军，假如你看上的是任何一个比圆圆还漂亮的女人，那该多好，我们都可以活在自己的世界里，梦想成真！”

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阳光从山脚一路赶来，驱赶的晨雾无处藏身，大小树木慢慢露出脑袋，吞吐着这温柔的光线。

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“那是很冷的山海关，一身貂裘的她 ，流波婉转，美不可言。我想我可以宁愿为她放弃整个天下！”

将军毫无了昔日铁马利刃的暴戾，言语温柔的可人。

“因为她，这么多年来，没一个女人再能给我这种感觉，你看我现在，这山上可见有一个女人？”

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到底是谁的错？

把三个人的梦拉扯到一起，又朝各个方向扔了出去、、、扔的遥不可及、、、

“他现在人呢？”

“听说也来到了长沙城内？”

我可以感受到背后有一双眼睛突然放了光，久违的兴奋！

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独孤门圣还在为他卖命，或者只是同病相连。

这才知道，他们都不杀我，原来各有目的。

突然有些失望、、、

或许是我想多了。

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“城中在闹瘟疫，我打算带她离开，不料，却在前几天，她独自离去了、、、、”

“我在城南寻找，不料被守卫所截，后被你和乞丐相救，行到此处。”

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那日，在城门前，突然飞过来的两支箭，射翻了迎面扑来两个兵卫。

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救我的人是他，其实也有独孤门圣，或者说，他们本身就是一伙。

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“城南并没有闹瘟疫，只是有几个贩药的商人死在了不知名的药上，随后，有人便开始谣传。”

“为什么会这样？”

这也是我一直想要弄明的事。

“这是个阴谋、、、、”

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